Sparklemilhouse

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Monday, I had a bad dream about the guy I loved for 7 years. He came to see me at college before graduation, but instead of having sex with me, he wanted to hang out with topless, skinny girls. It was just like real life. Almost 2 years ago, he went to the Philippines to get some whore he met on the internet and he married her, leaving me absolutely devastated. I almost strangled myself and I scratched myself all over when I found out. I still cry when I think about it, I didn't think about it much when I was unemployed, because 100% of my thoughts went to trying to get a job. Now that I have a job again, it leaves me a lot of time to think*, and now due to that bad dream I had Monday I can't stop thinking about how he chose her over me, and I'm always on the verge of tears over it.

I know you're probably thinking why don't I try to date again, well, that's impossible when you're ugly. That's why he chose her over me.

  • I'm alone at work a lot because I catalog new books that come to our library. I'm in front of a computer with the books all day.